The title was so much cooler early this morning…I slept it away….I love New York.
I love how busy NYC is. I could barely sleep and the little sleep I got felt like hours. The city truly never sleeps and neither could I. I wasn’t tired till I got back on the plane. May be a sign of things to come. Not sure. However I know some of the feelings I captured I want to keep forever and apply it to my everyday life. Environment…is so big in my life right now
It’s amazing how the feel and vibe of a city puts you in a frame of mind to do certain things. I had a great time and realized quite a few things about myself, where I want to go and what I plan to do over the last 8 or so weeks but most importantly, the last view days have gotten very real for me mentally.
After I GORGED on Prime Beef and Pork delicacies [I know Challenge Ruined] along with Red Wine…I was a vulnerable, staggering yet completely on point mess…I didn’t feel drunk. I felt emotional and reflective. I have periods where things get crystal clear.
I’m out in Harlem singing these songs that are tapping into a place that made more sense than ever. Why would a DJ on a Thursday night be playing a series of songs about Lost Love, Heartache and Promise…Don’t know but it all applied as I proceed to sing the wine away from my pores.
It put me in a real reflective period. One that for the moment I will keep to myself. Sometimes your understandings are for you. People get into the habit of assuming your communication is to initiate a gain or a chance to argue your right or right your wrongs. I always speak to be understood…coincidentally not being understood or listened to is my biggest pet peeve of LIFE! Plus your moments of clarity are mind dumps ways to transition to the next phase. Maybe I’ve been too hard on myself. Maybe the worst is yet to come. I don’t know but, I know that the more words I put to paper and to blogs the better I feel. Do you know what it’s like to feel an emotion shift? I think I’m there.
The joy of peace of mind is so underrated. People don’t get it. Someone will go to the grave harboring Ill Will to another human being or denying that they have it. It’s ok to love, hate, express and wash away…if that’s what you want to do. The most important thing is to be at peace with yourself. To a degree I believe your inner peace has the capability to heal things around you.
I have had real issues in my life over the years…I’m still standing because of the decisions that I have made within me. Those changes altered my environment and the people in it. Vibes, Auras and Energies are extremely real. Sometimes how you react says more about what’s around you than you personally.
I got more changes to make…we’ll continue this soon….I got to type of my Moral Compass Theory. Stay Tuned!